| Life is a gift.
Written by me in 2011
Have you ever heard the term life? What does it mean? I know the dictionary definition is the span of time that you are alive but what is life to you? Sometimes life is hard to comprehend. It has a lot of twists and turns like on a windy road. Just think what life really means to you.
Ever since I was little, I have struggled with life. Often times I wondered why I am even here. I was treated very poorly growing up by friends in school. I get frustrated very easily and that frustration quickly turns to rage. Recently I have realized that when I let this happen, I am only hurting myself more and more. I am digging a deeper and deeper hole of my own self-pity.
Life isnít something to take advantage of because you only have one. You may think that you have a really bad life but trust me, there are worse cases. You have to appreciate what you have and embrace it. Live life to the fullest because you never know when it is going to end.
I used to believe that life was just a joke that everyone falls for at some point. That is not true at all. Life is not a joke but simply a gift. You may be asking yourself ďhow if life a gift, it hasnít benefited me in any wayĒ. You are absolutely correct. Imagine the lives of the people around you that care about you if you never existed. Your life is not a gift to yourself but a simple gift to your loved ones. They are the ones that benefit from your existence and you benefit from their lives as well.
I have heard many educated people declare that their life did not turn out as planned. I believe that in 99.99% of all people end up this way. The reason is because you canít simply plan your life and expect to stay on that path. When you are little, you tell your mother that you want to be a fireman or a teacher when you grow up. Then you start school, learn new things, and experience the world. Later in life, doors open up that you never imagined would because why?
Doors open up because of your accomplishments. When you make decisions some doors will close and new ones will open. Many people donít understand the concept. You canít plan your life out from the beginning. It will never work out as planned. You have too many decisions to make that will change your path.
I am lucky to have a family that supports my everyday life decisions. We understand that we can only write the story of what happens in our lives. God has already planned or outlined the story, we just have to fill in the details. You get to decide whether your life will be boring, regular, erratic or magnificent. God gave us this choice.
Life consists of many speed bumps that we must face. Everyone has different ones. For instance, I have had many. My parents split when I was really little. I donít even remember them being together. I have grown up transitioning from house to house, parent to parent. Both of my parents got remarried to different people. Now as a freshman in high school, I am still an outcast with very few friends. People have harassed me mentally and sexually. Now I have many speed bumps but most people have just a few. Life is tough.
Life lays out some speed bumps to test you. Sometimes you pass and sometimes you fail. Sometimes you get a second chance but more often than not you donít. I have always told myself that I am invincible and that nobody can hurt me. I realize now that I am not. I read two books by Bette Green; Summer of my German Soldier and Morning is a Long Time Coming. Bette Green wrote based on her life experiences as a young adult during and after WWII. I could relate to her stories and she helped me realize what life really is for me.
Life can be hard to deal with but everyone has a purpose. Donít go bathe in your own self-pity like I did just because you donít know what your purpose is yet. All you have to remember is that everyone has speed bumps, big and little. You can get over them. Ask yourself what life means to you personally. Donít think about the dictionary definition but what you truly feel about life. Life is a gift.